The Food Poisoning That Brought Me Back to Myself

A story about surrender, Human Design, and finally saying goodbye to McDonald’s

It started with a Quarter Pounder with Cheese Deluxe and ended with adult diapers, a hospital visit, and a lot of inner healing I didn’t know I needed.

For the past three days, I’ve been completely knocked out.Food poisoning — the real, hospital-worthy kind.Fever. Vomiting. Body aches. Diapers. (Yes, diapers. We’ll get there.)

I couldn’t walk 10 feet without needing to sit down.My throat was raw. My body was aching. And I sounded like a cross between a dying frog and a sleep-deprived toddler.The first day, my husband rushed me to the ER. Two liters of IV fluids later, I was sent home... just in time for the real fun to begin. (Again, we’ll get there.)

When Your Body Forces the Reset

Being bedridden gave me no choice but to stop.And in that pause, the clarity came rushing in — between the fevers, the 3am sweats, and the sprints (okay, shuffles) to the bathroom.

Here’s what I realized:

1️⃣ I need people — but I can’t be available to everyone all the time.

The moment I got sick, everyone started calling.People I hadn’t heard from in months showed up in my inbox needing support, favors, advice, answers.And for once, I physically couldn’t respond. I had nothing left to give.It made me see just how much I overextend. Especially with family. Especially when I’m already at capacity.

2️⃣ I need simplicity — and a cozy space to create.

When I am working, I thrive in a clean, calm, closed setting.Give me a soft blanket, a couch corner, or the comfort of my own bed. That’s where I focus best.Forget the fancy desk setup. I want to feel held by my environment.

3️⃣ I need variety — in tiny, manageable doses.

I like to switch tasks every 5–10 minutes. It’s how I stay engaged. But if too many people need too many things at once?I shut down. Overstimulated. Done.This isn’t scattered energy — it’s energetic sensitivity.

How It All Ties Into My Human Design

As a Manifesting Generator with Triple Split Definition, this all makes sense.

I’m designed for variety — not rigid structure.
I thrive in short, aligned bursts of energy.
I need my space. I need my rhythm.
I’m not meant to respond to everyone else’s timelines.

My Caves Environment says: I need to feel safe and in control of my space.My Sacral Authority reminds me: when my energy says no, I need to listen.And this whole experience? It was one big sacral-level reset.

The Late-Night Spiral

At night, the real struggle began — not with my body, but with my mind.

Laying there, aching, sweating, unable to sleep... my thoughts raced.The guilt. The to-do lists. The family obligations. The fear of falling behind.It felt like I was trapped in a mental prison with no key.

But even in that chaos, I could feel something shifting.

I started to realize:

I’ve been trying to live by expectations that were never mine.
I’ve been carrying weight I never asked for.
And it’s time to release it — with grace, not guilt.

The Diaper Moment (And Why I’m Boycotting McDonald’s)

Now... let’s circle back to the diapers.

Yes, I sh*t myself. Multiple times.Yes, my husband lovingly went to the store and bought me adult diapers.Yes, I cried.And yes — I’m boycotting McDonald’s forever.

If you ever consider ordering the Quarter Pounder with Cheese Deluxe or the chocolate shake…don’t. Learn from me. Choose life.

A Love Letter to My Husband

To my husband — who saw me at my absolute worst, cleaned up my messes (literally), held my hand through the pain, and never made me feel ashamed...

I love you more than you’ll ever know.You are my home. My peace. My ride-or-die.(And also the reason I still have clean sheets.)

Final Takeaways

This wasn’t just about food poisoning.This was about clarity, boundaries, and alignment.

Sometimes your body will stop you so your soul can speak.And when it does, listen.

I’m not running on overcommitment anymore.I’m not letting guilt drive my schedule.I’m not living by someone else’s definition of success — not even my family’s.I’m building a life that honors my energy, my rhythm, and my values.

And from now on, I’m doing it diaper-free.

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